Self chatter ( 2 )

It's really strange how we make friends, stick to them, leave them, love them, hate them, argue with them........................
It's really un-explainable .

Hdl I have friends who love me for what I am , who takes my whole package un-conditionally.

I don't know if it's a bless or it's the other way round, when your friends think they can trust you with their lives. It really scares the hell out of me, I'm no superman.
I'm just the ordinary guy who looks strong on the outside and has his flaws & cracks in the inside.

I love my friends and I would do anything I can to help them.

Self chatter ( 1 )

I've tried almost every feeling in the world you can name during the past year. I even felt things that I haven't througout my entire life.

Here are feelings that I had to live through:

Intense fear, happiness, sadness, suppression, oppression, extreme anger, hate, satisfaction, joy, madness, anticipation, power, weakness, exhaustion, laziness, security, broken, full, empty, wanted, rejected, abused, used, on charge, taken for granted, appreciated, believed, trusted...........


But what I really long for; a shoulder to lean on.

lessons of 2008

I'm writing this early as I don't think I'll have the time on the new year's eve.

here are my lessons:

1) Patience is a very difficult thing, although we all can't live without.

2) Always think positive.

3) Sometimes, we need to take decisions that aren't lovely nor easy. We need to stand our ground afterwards.

4) A friend who trusts you is worth the world. A friend you trust , is worth your life.

5) Nothing, and I mean nothing, is worth a minute of freedom.

6) Freedom, is the power of choice.

7) Sometimes we need to give up somethings or people to maintain our free spirits.

8) You can never stop discovering yourself.

Childhood movies & TV shows.

Today , I found myself recalling the movies & TV shows I used to like & watch over and over again while I was a child.

Here's my list ( the ones I've remembered ):

1- The Black Stallion
2- Karate Kid ( the series )
3- Hassan beih el-3'alban ( a silly movie, starring Samir 3'anem )
4- The Jungle Book
5- Robinson Cruiso ( a hilarious movie )
6- Karate Kid ( the movie )
7- Night Rider ( I used to watch David Hasslehoff.......... errrrrrrrg )

Hyper-creative, some modification needed

Yesterday, I had a frank chat with one of my senior staff. I was talking to her about how depressed I am, because we are faaaaaar beyond the reputed world class universities and dental centers. I also stated my deep belief ( that it seems impossible ) that one day we could reach them as no-one gives a damn about it.

Her answers were soo true and clarifying. She told me some stuff about my-self that I didn't know about ( or to be precise, didn't know all of it ).

Here's what she said:

1) I can easily spot defects, complain about them , suggest ideas for their solving BUT not taking actions.

my comment: true to a certain extent.

2) Ana bazha2 besor3a

my comment: Geddan geddan

3) I'm hyper-creative that I have too much ideas that I'm distracted by them.

my comment: I knew about the distraction, but didn't know about the hyper-creativity.

4) I have the potential for being something big one day.

my comment: YA RABB

Take the long way

Right now I'm in a situation that I want to reach some person. I only have one friend as a link to that person.
From my position, I can't use my friend to reach this person ( for some reasons I have ).
I'm looking for other links now.

It's becoming a very difficult job.

Plan B

One of the most important things that I believe-in in this life is PLANNING. As they say " if you fail to plan, then plan to fail ".
But I , personally, have one thing to add to this. My own strategy is to ALWAYS have a Back-up plan ( that's why I call it B, not because it comes in second ). It's of the same importance to having a plan in first place.
On planning anything I always have this question " what if it goes wrong ?" so, I usually have an answer to that ready in my pocket.
This is my own strategy and I've tried it with quiet success till now.

In Kuwait after 4 years ( 3 )

More of the stuff I've noticed :

1) It's new to this country to have roaming taxis. Back then, taxi was only an on-call service. You caouldn't find a car roaming the streets for you to stop.

2) The newest way to wear the hijab is what I call the ( Hunch-head ). Ladies put something under their hijab to lift the back area of their head. I haaaaaaaaate how it looks big time, it's a very repelling look.

3) The guys' in-style hair cut is to have every single hair on your head full length, dropping over the ear and back. The rest of your hair is ( sabayky-- 3ala ra2y a7mad 7elmy ).

4) Egyptian traits are becoming infectious, people started to stay up late. I never imagined that I'll have to stand in Sultan's ( a big hyper market ) qeue for 30:00 min. at 2:00 am !!!!!!!

On feeling free

لم أكن أعلم أن حرية الروح كما سلبت يمكن يوما أن تعود . فإني أعلم بالتحديد في أي لحظات حياتي سلبت مني حريتي ، فلم أعد أتنفس كالبشر ، و لكني كنت منذ تلك اللحظة كالآلة التي تسحب الهواء ثم تفرغه دون إستغلاله أو الشعور بوجوده

و لكن مع إقلاع الطائرة لم أستطع إلا الإبتسام و الإحساس بنسيم الحرية يملىء رئتي . فها أنا قد ولدت حرا من جديد

Belya, 26-8-08

Right after the plane take-off .

In Kuwait after 4 years ( 2 )

3ashan 7'ater Sou, here are more of the things I've noticed in my short visit to Kuwait:

1) Hospitals are still a wonderful oraganised place ( that's if you are a doctor ).
2) There's an increase in the number of Indians & Egyptians.
3) Although the it has always been the case that cheap labour live in an un-human conditions, it's my first time to bump into a beggar who isn't arabic speaking. Does this indicate anything about their conditions !!!!!!!!! I don't know
4) There has been an improvement in the quality of internet connections.
5) Avenues, a veeeeeeery big mall, is a cool place. Yet, I find it soul-less.
6) Ikea is a boring place, you have to go through the whole 2 storeys of the store to reach the exit.
7) It's becoming a more difficult task to find normal decent clothing ( where you are still in style, yet you aren't wearing cat walk clothing). Stores are selling waaaaaaaaay trendy ( cat-walkish as I call it ) outfits.
8) More & more Egyptians are starting to own 4WD cars.


Kefaya keda.